Not Ready

Please understand that I am not ready to see you yet
I am still very upset
I will be ready to see you when
You are ready to be my dad again
I'm not going to your house to stay
And watch you drink your life away
Last time I went to see you, all you did was drink and cry
And all I could do was stand by
I didn't push you when you did not want to see me
So please don't try to make me feel guilty
I tried to forgive, I tried to forget
But I am just not ready yet
As soon as I am ready, I will let you know
And off yo your house is where I'll go
But we both have to be ready and try
And you have to promise not to lie