The only way I'd go see you
Is if you were dying, you know it's true
I'd go to make sure it wasn't another lie
And in that casket you'd really lie
You say you want to see my boys
You f'ed up, you made your choice
The only way I want them to know who you are
Is so I can warn them to stay far
I miss Miranda so very much
She's the reason I have stayed in touch
For what you've done you'll have to pay
And I hope for everyone's sake you're locked away
No one deserved the hurt you caused so live in fear
Your time is up, the end is near
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Cancer
Where did you come from, Why are you hear
You have donr enough we live in fear
No matter how it is that we live our life
You somehow take a mother, a sister, a wife
You also have been known to take a son or a brother
And now you are trying to take my father
No one can hide you are everywhere
In every family here and there
Please tell me what I can do
Our family has lost enough to you
We won't give up, we'll always fight
Until you are completely out of sight
Please don't take my dad, give him more time
Don't take him yet, I love him, he's mine!
We will fight and we will pray
Until you stop taking our loved ones away
You have donr enough we live in fear
No matter how it is that we live our life
You somehow take a mother, a sister, a wife
You also have been known to take a son or a brother
And now you are trying to take my father
No one can hide you are everywhere
In every family here and there
Please tell me what I can do
Our family has lost enough to you
We won't give up, we'll always fight
Until you are completely out of sight
Please don't take my dad, give him more time
Don't take him yet, I love him, he's mine!
We will fight and we will pray
Until you stop taking our loved ones away
What's Wrong With Me
Things are finally going good for me
So why do I feel so lonely
Things are finally starting to work out
So what am I so upset about
Things have changed so fast
And I just can't let go of my past
Things are so very confusing
I am fighting myself so how am I losing
I am so confused and really afraid
My life has moved on yet the pain has stayed
I moved on leaving so much behind
For this new lie and happiness I am still trying to find
I'm fighting so hard to survive
When I don't even want to be alive
I thought that being a part of a family
Would make me happy
But I am still so sad
It was love from the family I had already had
I wish there was a way to make them love and want me
I fear that is the only way I will ever be happy
I need them to love me the way they should
I just wish they would
Love is to be felt not spoken
Until then, my heart will remain broken
So why do I feel so lonely
Things are finally starting to work out
So what am I so upset about
Things have changed so fast
And I just can't let go of my past
Things are so very confusing
I am fighting myself so how am I losing
I am so confused and really afraid
My life has moved on yet the pain has stayed
I moved on leaving so much behind
For this new lie and happiness I am still trying to find
I'm fighting so hard to survive
When I don't even want to be alive
I thought that being a part of a family
Would make me happy
But I am still so sad
It was love from the family I had already had
I wish there was a way to make them love and want me
I fear that is the only way I will ever be happy
I need them to love me the way they should
I just wish they would
Love is to be felt not spoken
Until then, my heart will remain broken
Please Understand
I don't mean to be rude, I don't mean to deceive
Please understand why I have to leave
It is something that I must do
It has nothing to do with my love for you
I need to do what is best for me
It is my turn to be happy
I finally found a family
Who want to take care of me
I don't have anywhere else to stay
I don't really have another way
I will finally get to be
Part of a happy family
Please understand why I have to leave
It is something that I must do
It has nothing to do with my love for you
I need to do what is best for me
It is my turn to be happy
I finally found a family
Who want to take care of me
I don't have anywhere else to stay
I don't really have another way
I will finally get to be
Part of a happy family
A Dad
A dad is someone who is always there
A dad is someone who will always care
You should of been there when I needed a friend
No matter what until the end
You made me feel so bad
You were supposed to be my dad
You said so many things that hurt me inside
So many nights I stayed home and cried
You have lied to me right from the start
I don't know how to put back all of the pieces to my broken heart
I've gotten used to all of the broken promises
But I will never get used to going to bed without my daddy's kisses
A dad is someone who will always care
You should of been there when I needed a friend
No matter what until the end
You made me feel so bad
You were supposed to be my dad
You said so many things that hurt me inside
So many nights I stayed home and cried
You have lied to me right from the start
I don't know how to put back all of the pieces to my broken heart
I've gotten used to all of the broken promises
But I will never get used to going to bed without my daddy's kisses
Not Ready
Please understand that I am not ready to see you yet
I am still very upset
I will be ready to see you when
You are ready to be my dad again
I'm not going to your house to stay
And watch you drink your life away
Last time I went to see you, all you did was drink and cry
And all I could do was stand by
I didn't push you when you did not want to see me
So please don't try to make me feel guilty
I tried to forgive, I tried to forget
But I am just not ready yet
As soon as I am ready, I will let you know
And off yo your house is where I'll go
But we both have to be ready and try
And you have to promise not to lie
I am still very upset
I will be ready to see you when
You are ready to be my dad again
I'm not going to your house to stay
And watch you drink your life away
Last time I went to see you, all you did was drink and cry
And all I could do was stand by
I didn't push you when you did not want to see me
So please don't try to make me feel guilty
I tried to forgive, I tried to forget
But I am just not ready yet
As soon as I am ready, I will let you know
And off yo your house is where I'll go
But we both have to be ready and try
And you have to promise not to lie
Die Mom Die
I hate my mom and she hates me
I hope that she dies very painfully
She took everything and left me here
All she cares about are drugs and beer
Why oh why was I so blind
And why did that bitch leave me behind
Maybe it's better that she's so far away
One day I swear that bitch will pay
If only I was stronger
She wouldn't be alive any longer
I hate her and hope she dies
And burns in h*ll
With all of her lies
I was young and angry! I have since forgiven her and we have started to have a relationship.
I hope that she dies very painfully
She took everything and left me here
All she cares about are drugs and beer
Why oh why was I so blind
And why did that bitch leave me behind
Maybe it's better that she's so far away
One day I swear that bitch will pay
If only I was stronger
She wouldn't be alive any longer
I hate her and hope she dies
And burns in h*ll
With all of her lies
I was young and angry! I have since forgiven her and we have started to have a relationship.
Sorry
I want you to know that I never meant to hurt you
And that my feelings for you have always been true
I'm not really sure what to say
THings weren't supposed to turn out this way
You're the one I want with me
Only you, don't you see
THe hurt I felt was eating me inside
So much that I wanted to hide
I have never had the feelings that I have for you
They'll always be there no matter what I do
I am sorry for any hurt that was caused by me
Please accept my apology
I love you still
No matter what I always will!
<3
And that my feelings for you have always been true
I'm not really sure what to say
THings weren't supposed to turn out this way
You're the one I want with me
Only you, don't you see
THe hurt I felt was eating me inside
So much that I wanted to hide
I have never had the feelings that I have for you
They'll always be there no matter what I do
I am sorry for any hurt that was caused by me
Please accept my apology
I love you still
No matter what I always will!
<3
Why Mom Why
There's not much that I can say or do
I never thought I would have to live without you
You put me through so much pain
So you can have your cokain
It's not fair what you did to me
How could you leave me so easily
You ignored me and how I felt
And you don't even know what I am upset about
How could you do this to me
I thought we were a family
I remember all of the lies you said to me
Yet somehow always made me feel guilty
You're my mom, I believed what you said
Because f you I could be dead
Maybe it's better that we're so far apart
Cuz I want to jab a knife through your heart
(again written during a very painful and confusing time, would not actually stab anyone just expressing my hurt and frustrations! )
I never thought I would have to live without you
You put me through so much pain
So you can have your cokain
It's not fair what you did to me
How could you leave me so easily
You ignored me and how I felt
And you don't even know what I am upset about
How could you do this to me
I thought we were a family
I remember all of the lies you said to me
Yet somehow always made me feel guilty
You're my mom, I believed what you said
Because f you I could be dead
Maybe it's better that we're so far apart
Cuz I want to jab a knife through your heart
(again written during a very painful and confusing time, would not actually stab anyone just expressing my hurt and frustrations! )
Life
Life isn't worth living if you're living in pain
Life isn't worth living if there's nothing to gain
Life isn't worth living if you don't have a friend
It's better off to get to the end
Life isn't worth living if you always scream and shout
Life isn't worth living if you have no one to care about
Life isn't worth living if you're living a lie
It'd be better off to just die
Life isn't worth living if you feel like dirt
Life isn't worth living if you're always hurt
Life isn't worth living if people play games in your head
It'd be better of to be dead
Life isn't worth living if you don't know what to do
Life isn't worth living if you have no one to talk to
Life isn't worth living if your always scared
It's be better of dead if no one cared
Life isn't worth living if you're always alone
Life isn't worth living if you have no one to phone
Life isn't worth living if you don't live day by day
Everyone dies anyway
Written during a very painful time in my life, hoping anyone reading this that may be feeling down can see that there is a light at the end, things do get better, suicide is not worth it! DO not give in, do not lose hope! Happy endings can happen, may have to work harder than others but you can get through it!
To anyone feeling like suicide in any way please find someone to talk to, if you think you have no one find a councellor, a stranger, write a letter, anything, something, you have to know that someone somewhere will care and most importantly you have to care about yourself! You have to believe you are worth it, never let the bad things that other have done to you define your future, rise above it and show them how strong you are despite what they have put you through and eventually you can even forgive them and let it all go and be happy! Happiness is out there! <3
Life isn't worth living if there's nothing to gain
Life isn't worth living if you don't have a friend
It's better off to get to the end
Life isn't worth living if you always scream and shout
Life isn't worth living if you have no one to care about
Life isn't worth living if you're living a lie
It'd be better off to just die
Life isn't worth living if you feel like dirt
Life isn't worth living if you're always hurt
Life isn't worth living if people play games in your head
It'd be better of to be dead
Life isn't worth living if you don't know what to do
Life isn't worth living if you have no one to talk to
Life isn't worth living if your always scared
It's be better of dead if no one cared
Life isn't worth living if you're always alone
Life isn't worth living if you have no one to phone
Life isn't worth living if you don't live day by day
Everyone dies anyway
Written during a very painful time in my life, hoping anyone reading this that may be feeling down can see that there is a light at the end, things do get better, suicide is not worth it! DO not give in, do not lose hope! Happy endings can happen, may have to work harder than others but you can get through it!
To anyone feeling like suicide in any way please find someone to talk to, if you think you have no one find a councellor, a stranger, write a letter, anything, something, you have to know that someone somewhere will care and most importantly you have to care about yourself! You have to believe you are worth it, never let the bad things that other have done to you define your future, rise above it and show them how strong you are despite what they have put you through and eventually you can even forgive them and let it all go and be happy! Happiness is out there! <3
What did I do?
All I wanted was to be a good daughter
I never thought I'd lose my own father
What did I do that was so bad?
What did I do to make you so mad?
Somehow I made you stay
So very far away
We were so close, 2 peas in a pod
Now we can't even be in the same spot
Why don't you want me anymore?
Why do you want to close the door?
We used to play, argue and fight
Now you don't want me in your sight
Why don't you want to be with me?
Why can't it be like it used to be?
I never thought anything could take us apart
I now wonder if I was ever really in your heart
What do I have to do?
I want to be loved by you
I want to feel the way that I did
When you were my dad and I was your kid
What did I do that was so bad
To make you not want to be my dad?
I never thought I'd lose my own father
What did I do that was so bad?
What did I do to make you so mad?
Somehow I made you stay
So very far away
We were so close, 2 peas in a pod
Now we can't even be in the same spot
Why don't you want me anymore?
Why do you want to close the door?
We used to play, argue and fight
Now you don't want me in your sight
Why don't you want to be with me?
Why can't it be like it used to be?
I never thought anything could take us apart
I now wonder if I was ever really in your heart
What do I have to do?
I want to be loved by you
I want to feel the way that I did
When you were my dad and I was your kid
What did I do that was so bad
To make you not want to be my dad?
Daddy's Girl
I was daddy's girl, I trusted you
You lied to me but what could I do
When you got drunk, I got scared
And ran to guys who said they cared
Beer is #1 in your life
It comes before your child and your wife
When you get drunk you on;y care about yourself
You and nothing else
I was daddy's girl, I believed what you said
But all you were doing was messing with my head
We had bad times but always pulled through
No matter what you did, I always forgave you
You told me you'd do anything for me and I thought you would
So why didn't you stop drinking, you said you could
I was daddy's girl, we used to play games
Now you just call me names
If being daddy's girl hurts so bad
I don't think I want to, please don't be mad
I don't want you to drink because I care
And ONLY when you stop will I be there
I want to be together, not apart
But too many times you have broken my heart
Daddy, I would love to be with you again
And be daddy's girl until the end!
You lied to me but what could I do
When you got drunk, I got scared
And ran to guys who said they cared
Beer is #1 in your life
It comes before your child and your wife
When you get drunk you on;y care about yourself
You and nothing else
I was daddy's girl, I believed what you said
But all you were doing was messing with my head
We had bad times but always pulled through
No matter what you did, I always forgave you
You told me you'd do anything for me and I thought you would
So why didn't you stop drinking, you said you could
I was daddy's girl, we used to play games
Now you just call me names
If being daddy's girl hurts so bad
I don't think I want to, please don't be mad
I don't want you to drink because I care
And ONLY when you stop will I be there
I want to be together, not apart
But too many times you have broken my heart
Daddy, I would love to be with you again
And be daddy's girl until the end!
why
You really hurt me and made me cry
All you ever did was lie
You weren't there when I was scared
I felt as if you never cared
When you left you didn't say goodbye
And I just want to know why
When you kicked through our front door
I didn't think you loved me anymore
I used to be your little princess
You have turned my life into a mess
You hurt me and made me cry
I really need to know why
I put your feelings before my own
You made me feel so alone
You said if I needed you, you'd always be there
But when I called for you, you said you didn't care
Was the love you had for me just another lie
Can you please tell me why
I remember all of the things that you used to say
It did not have to turn out this way
I thought you would always be there
I thought you would always care
It was you and mom who split, not me and you
So why is drinking all that you want to do?
All you ever did was lie
You weren't there when I was scared
I felt as if you never cared
When you left you didn't say goodbye
And I just want to know why
When you kicked through our front door
I didn't think you loved me anymore
I used to be your little princess
You have turned my life into a mess
You hurt me and made me cry
I really need to know why
I put your feelings before my own
You made me feel so alone
You said if I needed you, you'd always be there
But when I called for you, you said you didn't care
Was the love you had for me just another lie
Can you please tell me why
I remember all of the things that you used to say
It did not have to turn out this way
I thought you would always be there
I thought you would always care
It was you and mom who split, not me and you
So why is drinking all that you want to do?
Thursday, November 10, 2011
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